tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-57538502011-12-19T07:52:44.656+08:00I like being myself, yes thats me!<br>h@onoreply@blogger.comBlogger2691100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-64910825421786014412011-11-12T03:43:00.001+08:002011-11-12T03:47:20.038+08:00

没了旧照片，回忆只能随着日子淡忘...经过多次挫折，人成长了...刺猬为了自保，不得不伤害周围的一切...

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-50862531244111065292011-04-30T22:25:00.001+08:002011-04-30T22:27:31.394+08:00

当俩个人无法沟通，无法向对方倾诉心里的想法，那代表什么？

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-80337864410852684362011-04-07T02:26:00.002+08:002011-04-07T02:33:30.981+08:00

Whenever i got to put my thoughts down into words,it mean that I'm feeling shitty.Yes i am feeling shitty now.I shouldn't be, I'm supposedly having the time of my life now,getting a promotion soon, travelling on an all expenses paid culinary trips to a couple of countries, having famous chefs guiding me along on all these trips.But when one aspect of your life is so exciting, other aspects will

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-43562775138970611712011-01-21T12:39:00.002+08:002011-01-21T12:51:02.037+08:00

Its the time of the month again. One by one, everyone get called into the office for a chat. A performance review. Most came out smiling and given the pat in the back, a couple of promotions coming along. All these discussion are held one on one.Except for the special one, thats me.Its two on one in my case, LOL. As always, i gotta be the different one.Everything came out so well except that its

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-67613012732189047092010-09-15T01:49:00.002+08:002010-09-15T02:31:18.745+08:00

Life's full of choices/limitation.Just when you thought you had it all in the pocket, more choices are being thrown up for grab.This time round there's france, spain and good ol'singapore.The constant offer of jobs/training oversea is always tempting but everytime somewhere along the way, it just snap and there goes...unlucky or not worthy enough?Going back to school might not be the best choice

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-23161123906866040172010-09-04T11:54:00.002+08:002010-09-04T12:00:24.053+08:00

Okay long time no update. Nothing much happen actually.Got a promotion sometime back.USA is no longer available for inter-transfer.My only option is to go china but hotel under construction so earliest is next year end..Thinking of going uniSIM in july 2011 for a one year programme to get a Bc in culinary mgt but it's so expensive. So basically it's either to china or back to school next year.

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-67065650897404115532010-04-28T23:26:00.002+08:002010-04-28T23:33:12.006+08:00

为她好不一定就是对她好...Yes maybe to me its just a stick, isn't that the same to you as well?i don't understand why and I'll never understand why.So disappointing, so hurtful that i get such reaction from you.i hope u'll come to realise its all unnecessary.

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-86562558208638032262010-03-15T16:05:00.003+08:002010-03-15T16:15:33.949+08:00

Another week or so just gone by...Unknowingly..Life have been kind yet unkind.One moment full of hopes and laughter..another moment full of uncertainty and doubts.If only we can live in a world full of nothing but happiness..I like whatever that's going on in my life now..be it her or my work.All seems to be great..the more we be together, the more i want to know about her.the more i know about

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-42566746657725977082010-03-04T19:00:00.003+08:002010-03-04T19:06:23.940+08:00

And now the story goes on..never would i imagine people to be spreading words of me leaving.It just shows that you can't trust certain people..leson learnt.Its hard trying to pretend, and it was never my intention to hide.Got 'invited' into the office for a chat and it turn out to be like a fairytale.Everything seems to be perfect. But its all talk.I was given a job opputunity in US, better

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-31864529578719355522010-02-12T01:19:00.002+08:002010-02-12T01:32:33.071+08:00

Okay after struggling with myself for a week, I guess inside me I already have decided on where my next destination is..For myself, i guess its really a pretty hard decision. But I guess i just have to be selfish for once. For my own 'good'.Dear i'm sorry. For I know its harsh on you.Right now it seems like there's a world war going on in my mind.I can't help but feel so tensed up.I don't wanna

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-81782070037821464982010-02-06T13:52:00.003+08:002010-02-06T14:20:51.118+08:00

Why why why..Why things always seems to fall into place and then uproot itself and move away.So whats next? Career? Personal achievement? Family? maybe?Now that its here, once in a lifetime opportunity? or maybe I'll get more of such chances to come?Its really killing me..i really don't know how to make a decision here.It would have been easier if this came a few months ago. I swear i would have

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-43522296002678114752010-01-28T11:31:00.002+08:002010-01-28T11:35:33.762+08:00

It's a roller coaster hell of a month..so much changes here there everywhere.Maybe i really ain't suitable for it..I'm just too used to being me , myself and I...I can't put anything straight without having upsetting one or two peeps..Its such a chore having to pause and care about people's feeling rather than my own before i do anything..Sometime love ain't just enough.Dumb shitty feeling..

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-73343926177812160662010-01-20T07:29:00.002+08:002010-01-20T07:42:17.784+08:00

So there after 14 days of midnights and 4..or literally 3½ days of off days.Its back to the normal shift again today..but not for long.I guess my body clock is so screwed up that i keep waking up at 7am these days..Was supposed to take this off days to complete my list for competition but with the twist of events that happened and the limitation of time.. sigh!Not that i'm complaining in any way.

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-40246411257527344482010-01-02T17:27:00.002+08:002010-01-02T18:09:18.295+08:00

Awesome new year for me on a personal note.While many others spend their new year eve gathering with friends and family counting down and embracing the new year together.There I am in my kitchen dishing out course by course. Immaculate timing but alas poor service spoil the flow of action.We briefly pause for a while for the arrival of 2010, and a short champagne toast with the kitchen team. For

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-62387004237867449282009-12-30T04:25:00.002+08:002009-12-30T04:47:52.452+08:00

There i goes again..spending the past 18 hrs at work.Is it because i love my job or i just hate myself?There's so much to do and so all i can do is keep working!I don't know why i bother so much when i could have left.Even though i start working before most guys got into the kitchen and i was the last to ciao..i feel so guilty that its my off day..there is simply too much things left undone..From

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-64269024534855844122009-12-15T17:21:00.006+08:002009-12-15T17:28:29.676+08:00

Last day of my 4 off days..or rather 3½ days..Been a fulfilling one..time is never enough anyway.Would love to have meet up with more people but alas..time management is always an issue..Went for my futsal session, watch soccer, catch movie and dinner with R. Finally!Lol..met da jie, met W, met H, going for a blind date later..thanks to K!As i was calculating with da jie last night..9 is not a

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-80638698446581212762009-12-14T06:29:00.002+08:002009-12-14T07:10:46.536+08:00

Fluttery in the head. Rush of nicotine.Its been awhile since this feeling comes to me..and i'm loving it!Some people are such failure that 只会守三分钟诺言...People that stab others with dagger of harsh and cruel words end up hugging each others. Whats weird about it? If you can take their words at face value. Then take a look at me..a REAL GOOD LOOK please..that should make u realise enough to know that

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-31745036377817960222009-12-10T03:06:00.002+08:002009-12-10T04:06:32.514+08:00

Another 2 more days of work to go..this is the result of going on a 4 days off to bali. Work till late evening on the day before my trip and only a day to recoup and its 16 days of work. Non stop. I think our foreign talents in the construction business got better treatment. So much for passion! Pun Intended.Can't just help but wonder..some people choose career for money.Some for passion. But

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-80161223593681219502009-12-07T20:43:00.002+08:002009-12-07T20:56:44.833+08:00

I'm feeling gay this morning.. meet H for breakfast..I actually feel happy and sad..Happy that he's going back to run him own biz but sad that i'll have one less kaki for everything..there's so much things in common that i share with him. He taught me so much in life. Gave me so much advices.Anyway just happen to chance upon her blog. damn shit man..what did i do to cause such misunderstanding? '

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-84936305628868851122009-12-03T20:43:00.002+08:002009-12-03T21:11:42.504+08:00

yet another one...whats with the infatuation?sigh...simply don't get it.I just want my solitude. Why don't some people understand that..?Into the last month of 2009, one year coming to an end.Change job. Bought lotsa gadgets. Been oversea thrice in 5 months.From despair to happiness, to finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. Yes..after so much nagging and blabbing and insistence of my

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-11087549414174628622009-12-02T21:18:00.000+08:002009-12-02T21:19:41.308+08:00

hohoho..moscow! :)

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-24985156169330531122009-11-28T00:14:00.001+08:002009-11-28T00:15:27.798+08:00

day after day..is this what i live for?

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-21135429815450503992009-11-07T12:26:00.003+08:002009-11-07T12:40:46.076+08:00

Love doesn't mean you never get hurt,pain is always there..will always be there.Any pain u feel will never ever compare to the regret that comes from walking away from it.I know exactly how it feels. That tinge, it just linger on.Most days of the year are unremarkable,they began and they end with no lasting memories made in between,most days have no impact in the course of a life, until the day..

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-91022530502388964842009-11-03T03:25:00.003+08:002009-11-03T09:10:17.020+08:00

Trying to be adventurous in my next job search..Been looking at some interesting places..damn sad so far..nothing match what i want.Manhattan, NYCIbn Battuta, DubaiMykonos, Greecei just wanna get away from this damn place. this toot island.

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-72392414285401222932009-10-30T03:59:00.005+08:002009-10-30T04:47:13.637+08:00

Talking about taking a break...I saw my roster for next week..i really give up!for these 2 weeks i get 'midnight, off, full-shift' pattern.Layman terms, midnight eats into the next day off! which already pisses me.And following day 9am work till almost 11pm! i got like exactly 24hrs off! what the fuck!Best thing to follow up...after my friday midnight shift and sat off. Sunday i gotta 9am - 11pm

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-68658775804624325232009-10-25T01:58:00.003+08:002009-10-25T03:17:02.552+08:00

Been too preoccupied with work that even when i'm sleeping i dream of it...Can't sleep well these days..in my mind its all work, work, work..Sleep, work, sleep, work. I hate this life...Maybe at times i'm too fast to judge, got it wrong too many times...i see the reaction of you my friend, i see it in your eyes...i know what you are thinking and i remember what happened way back. I never forget.

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-41559490635631415792009-10-13T01:42:00.006+08:002009-10-13T02:23:00.676+08:00

""during poly when i noe u i feel the way u treat xxxxxx is nice chuan yi most impt thing is chuan yi n honesty though u might go ard n noe other gals but i doubt is when u hav a gf another thing which i see gd from u is xxxxx she got prob wif her family but u have the initiative to bring her hm n acc her wif her family at least i can see dat u dun only concern abt urself

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-53224901259135425722009-10-11T18:21:00.002+08:002009-10-11T18:32:47.025+08:00

When you get what you want but not what you need?Could it be worse?But if you never try, you never know.Just whats you're worth...

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-67789677929187076452009-10-11T17:37:00.002+08:002009-10-11T18:04:06.560+08:00

Back from China trip..this time wasn't as enjoyable as the previous one..Somehow holidaying and relaxing wasn't the agenda on my mind.Wanted so much to be back in SG, funny as it may seems.. But i'm not the only one..maybe people don't meant what they say but i took them at face value for their words.Realising that i wasn't as much valued just made me look stupid, dumb!3 times in a week i was at

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-39123173497397155292009-09-30T18:55:00.003+08:002009-09-30T19:37:00.145+08:00

I dunno what am i getting into lately..abit of spending frenzy and i just splurge another $200 on mooncakes.. Hmm..its not a good thing to do right after getting my pay for this month..Anyway heard that goodwood park's durain mooncake out of stock le.. :(So sad loh..Anyway now seems a good time to go oversea..lol the exchange rate is rather good!

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-3212601943073938832009-09-25T10:34:00.003+08:002009-09-25T10:53:25.448+08:00

Okay confession over..truth is out!I know you know whats all about.There's no way i'll promise anything because if i did, it wouldn't have been you..There's nothing more impt to me than myself, for all that i've gave out these years..I think its time I learn how to put my self interest right at where it should be.I thank all challenges that has been bestowed on me for it made me understand

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-21661475107370321062009-09-23T03:11:00.002+08:002009-09-23T03:17:06.117+08:00

Whats going on with all the crazy attention that i'm getting of late?Argh..not that i'm not at all happy..in fact i'm rather smug by all of these behind the scene gossip talk...truth can be quite intimidating whereasgossips are just a line between reality and lala-land..but its beginning to get overwhelming...

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-29323640551124938092009-09-21T17:37:00.002+08:002009-09-21T17:53:18.792+08:00

你眼带的笑意,讯带的含意，都隐藏你的秘密。I really can't bring myself to do it...As i always remind myself of the pain that was brought upon me,that i'll never bring onto someone else.Most of the time, 其实需要的只是一个旁听者。生活一目了然···而在等待···等待着能···带我到我看不见的，取不到的幸福，未来···All the butterflies in the stomach are long gone..all the facts are there to be felt, its hard to pretend and ignore..The feeling is gone, dead and buried...This

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-58093730323740183712009-09-13T20:45:00.002+08:002009-09-13T20:51:55.756+08:00

Again again..2 full day shift follow by 8 consecutive midnight shift.M - "so u working midnight this 2 days so u can get off on your birthday right?" ET - "Duh..i working whole day on my brithday leh.."M - "why like that.."ET - =_="M - "okie okie..i better ciao"I gotta clear my AL next month..so it has been set at 6th to 13th Oct.Zzzz...one week~!!!! What i gotta do?

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-75932738266753101002009-09-12T02:45:00.002+08:002009-09-12T03:13:12.840+08:00

Passion!!!!!!So much for chasing the dream!I guess i'm still dreaming...Now i got a piece each of good and bad news..!Good one come first!I wouldn't be working midnight shift on 16th September!Which mean i don't need to spend my birthday alone in the kitchen!Bad news is...I'm working from 8am till 10pm! Yeah! Yeah! whole day at Capella! WOW!How nice would it be? Yeah..so much for chasing the

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-29072580525657647052009-09-08T22:24:00.002+08:002009-09-08T22:26:22.384+08:00

For all the foresight..still fell on hindsight!Damn fuck! The bloody K** motor servicing causes $$707!!If ignorance is bliss then should i be happier now?

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-43580328292465541152009-09-04T23:55:00.000+08:002009-09-05T00:17:55.463+08:00

my oh my..off days are so expensive!Went JB to check out price for car respray..!The cheapest 1500 ringgit, the best deal?! 3100 to 3300 ringgit..! End up i ask that fella wax up my ride, wash engine, tires and polish the interior leather for 300 ringgit. Hai..the scratches are still so obvious...why why why!!!Today was even more painful!! My tires are worn out so i thought of getting a new sets

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-88027828296672214182009-09-01T02:16:00.000+08:002009-09-01T03:01:47.334+08:00

gotta my schedule for next week..sat and sun on midnight so presumably by logical deduction, i guess i'll spend my birthday working midnight shift.Not that i dread it..but who wants to spend birthday like that..no matter how insignificant this day have become..it's still a birthday issn't it?Few months back..this day seems to be going to be a week of fun somewhere in some part of this world..Ya

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-66482926020787500892009-08-25T03:35:00.003+08:002009-08-25T19:10:31.159+08:00

2 more days after today and it spell the END of this boring night shift.. Came across a piece of news today and somehow its just FML...Don't i just hate myself for everything thats going on?why why why..always late when it comes to the moment, the decision making that matters..for the thousand things that i does right..i always put to heart the thing that gone wrong...why am i so hypercritical of

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-38813786782001653722009-08-22T19:12:00.000+08:002009-08-22T19:22:18.173+08:00

To all the love that bring us alive...人小时候，最怕寂寞怕没朋友陪自己玩。。。如果爱一个人怎么会不害怕和她分开而我们必须接受现实于是长大了，寂寞就是没有了爱比没有朋友更寂寞那是连朋友也填满不上的空缺即使再短暂也会刻苦铭心那些点亮我们生命的爱不一定会陪你到最后就仿佛发生在。。。。的故事

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-91220602656419123322009-08-20T19:23:00.000+08:002009-08-20T19:25:52.174+08:00

The more i try to talk things out, the more it exacerbate your feeling for me.Would you tell me please...What can i do?

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-88882681772398971072009-08-19T21:44:00.002+08:002009-08-19T22:07:07.944+08:00

能心醉才心碎残忍得真乾脆绝非酒精可忘记不肯心死原来并未试过I hate this feeling thats going through me right now..why am i such a fool? why must i make a fool of myself?didn't i say not to mention?for all the logics, and logical deduction that i always had,why do i have to lose myself when it come to this.do i really have to bring this piece of regret with me to wherever my next destination fall? i really really want

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-11846887013192399402009-08-19T02:44:00.002+08:002009-08-19T02:58:58.217+08:00

How you feel when you trust people so much that you gave them what was..。only to find out otherwise?sigh...i'm not gullible, i just prefer to trust you rather than to doubt you.But why once and again..you have to prove me wrong?And to add injury to insult, i always have to hear it from everyone else's mouth in this damn world before it came out through yours...why do i have to go through this

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-81623535909515312902009-08-18T02:41:00.000+08:002009-08-18T03:03:02.915+08:00

8 days of midnight shift awaits me after my off day...sian..8 days..! Thur and Fri is my off days for next week then follow by 8am till 11 pm on sat and sun again...Damn sian! Is it because i got no family commitment thats why i always get such shitty shift...! Damn why is it people get to leave on time or earlier but never me..the only time i was supposed to leave at 5.30, i end up leaving at

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-9817150175049000292009-08-15T02:01:00.001+08:002009-08-15T02:04:08.008+08:00

张栋梁 - 低调嬉笑打闹拥抱留下了那么多开心合照互相取暖依靠熬过了最低潮一起生活也一起埋怨过走过最好与最糟我在心里想的不用说明你知道晨昏日夜颠倒这房子突然没从前热闹散落一地微笑没有人去打扫感情很微妙再多付出也好再多关心都徒劳爱情从来就没有固定的味道它最后停在哪里谁知道我的难过是如此低调因为不想打扰我在寂寞的墙角努力的对自己好你用微笑回报朋友或情人不重要我的悲伤是如此低调傻子才会哭闹就算你发现也好我想你一定会选择假装不知道只怕我自己的掩饰不够好难到是我对我自己不够好

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-19140838257860917202009-08-12T23:10:00.002+08:002009-08-12T23:22:57.153+08:00

Went to hospital with mom today..did all the check ups..Tomorrow going back for surgery...was told by the doc that its going to be quite a serious one..don't feel so good after hearing..Mom need to be hospitalised for 3-5 days, i gotta work for the 5 days...can't even accompany her...i know she's scared..but she pretend she issn't...I wish i could do something for her..but the fact is i can't and

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-38754270370383432982009-08-10T02:19:00.000+08:002009-08-10T02:45:52.545+08:00

Totally unmotivated for work..My attitude is getting from bad to worse...Its often the attitude that determine who you are and how well you are going to accomplished anything.I got so pissed that i made a hollandaise twice and i break it twice.I just gave up and let my devil inside me take over my head...I just can't find any motivation for anything at all..People are praising me for food that

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-85908007156373708652009-08-08T23:54:00.002+08:002009-08-09T00:23:04.680+08:00

i don't need to be the sunshine of your life,the day is bright enough with others all around..all i wish upon is to be the moonlight,that provide some solace during the dark hours...looking forward..its pitch black.can anything light up my path?praises i get too often, and laughters all around..somehow it just doesn't mean a thing to me..why do i have to go through twice the turmoil,never say

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-54699388556668527432009-08-06T17:35:00.002+08:002009-08-06T17:55:35.267+08:00

As time slowly tickle into the night,the minute just seems to go by slower and slower...night shift have been so painful...work doesn't numb my thoughts.alone in the kitchen with absolute silent just makes my mind wander..wander into the past...wander into the days where you exist in my future.the thought of you and me cause my heart more ache than it ever could take.假装若无其事。。。

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-22892153329243988182009-08-03T03:03:00.000+08:002009-08-03T03:26:51.754+08:00

我不怕你不爱我，只怕你把习惯当着爱无论我怎么用心呵护，你对我的爱始终不肯开花我也只能认了，这花非我所能照顾，拥有你我的故事到尽头，还是没有完结篇。只能够到此停笔。明天是要开始记载新的一页，我该归根守候还是拔根离去心里的答案是否真实，无奈无可自答。。。终放弃我，无所谓辜负我，无所谓不爱我，无所谓要我滚，我滚无所谓要我回来，对不起，滚远了

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-45747330480270353762009-07-25T12:05:00.001+08:002009-07-25T12:31:18.802+08:00

Today my dream die...Theorically its dead for sometime. I just didn't feel it'll hurt so much.. Right to the core of my heart.I thought i've come to my senses..I thought i'm not supposed to care anymore.As so i thought...When we open the account, it open up our dreams...i never show my emotions, for i know its still a distance away, but inside me i was ecstaticour dream house,our dream car,our

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-4041181724621187142009-07-23T00:49:00.003+08:002009-07-23T01:07:47.702+08:00

I'm sick, i got 2 days MC, i go to work.I think i'm able to work, i don't want to be at home doing nothing..so i work...morally okay? But what if people caught my virus??Am I causing harm instead? Hai...didn't think of that. Good or Bad how to judge?Every once in a while...people come to a crossroad.Where to walk, what path to take depends a lot on current circumstances.The path i choose to head

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-31929921684020698632009-07-19T22:26:00.000+08:002009-07-19T23:01:09.891+08:00

Fever don't seems to subside, coming back again..So glad i'm finally getting back to work tomorrow!Hope my body temp will get back to norm by the time i wake up..The blast from Jarkata, really sad to see such acts again and again.Why such extreme behaviours..and those that lost their life...What is it that the organisation gain from it? ZERO!Destabilising the regional security? hardly..

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-61415518399644512822009-07-17T15:52:00.004+08:002009-07-17T16:15:00.038+08:00

.....the reason why i'm so lethagic the whole of yesterday...Its not the combat fitness test that i went through in the morning.Its not the super spicy noodle i had the night before thats causing me discomfort in my throat.It's fever! Bodyache, sore throat and cough so badly that my throat hurts whenever i cough...Its not getting any better today. Have you ever felt what is it like to fall sick

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-29057428259610933682009-07-15T23:41:00.002+08:002009-07-16T00:04:44.648+08:00

2 more days to go before my ICT come to an end...I thought it'll be the end of the world for me...But i never expect it to be such a relieve...Maybe I should have seen it from the on start that it'll never turn out the way i would have wanted i to be..from the planning till the day we put pen to paper for the option to purchase..I was so sure..so 100% sure...When i was given that one week off...I

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-72033074970821120662009-07-15T02:11:00.002+08:002009-07-15T02:17:45.542+08:00

and for that information..my blog is for me to rant and rant and rant the whole of my screwed-up mind!so pls respect the fact that none of you know enough to judge!so don't bad mouth w.

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-72829105036553853072009-07-15T01:53:00.002+08:002009-07-15T02:05:23.273+08:00

I never had a chance to say a word about what happened issn't it?For all the violence that had been said, or perceived..All i did was to channel my fustration onto the dashboard.Doesn't i even have the option to vent my anger?Doesn't anyone goes off and lose it once in a while?What are my other options there and then?Bang my head or jump out of the car?Never mind whatever it is...What you don't

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-86743987481969369872009-07-08T23:59:00.002+08:002009-07-09T00:14:27.816+08:00

Thanks for knocking some senses into me!I deserve better than what i'm getting...I think I do...haven't i been tolerating?You can built a thousand and one stories with your one and only theory.But you've never show what it takes to be what you said to be.It's true that love is blind.All is undone now.My sight is now clear.Thanks for leaving! Take away with you; your obduracy and selfishness.

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-89946966123029193142009-07-07T16:13:00.002+08:002009-07-07T16:25:53.509+08:00

Answer doesn't change the fact,the question mark however...remains.

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-5738500938869925582009-07-05T04:45:00.003+08:002009-07-05T05:03:53.810+08:00

It's hard to believe that there's no way outAnd it seems to be, the story of our lifeIt's like one step forward and two steps backNo matter what I do, you're always madAnd I can't change your mindIt's like trying to turn around on a one way streetI can't give you what you want and it's killing meAnd I...I'm starting to see that maybe we're not meant to beThere's still time to turn this

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-71979151505976626492009-07-03T05:39:00.002+08:002009-07-03T06:06:26.753+08:00

Whatever that happen between you and I, happened because of you and I.应为我的(whatever evil deeds)所以你的(consequence).Was that a fair statement? Touch your heart, ask your conscience.是否自问过自己倔强的性格？Put me down for everything for I wouldn't rebuff.I hate been misunderstood.And I don't want to explain after all is said and done.Let it be as what you say it is.For all the dignity and pride I've throw away

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-27854682468411027202009-07-02T03:34:00.002+08:002009-07-02T03:47:34.182+08:00

Hmm..spend my first day off meeting up with my aunt...Amazingly we chat till so late...Then off for a couple of rounds of billards till 3am.That was cool...i can't recall the last time i actually played till so late.Tomorrow a pretty packed day as well...Mom in the morning, Bryan and William for lunch, helping Jimmy in late noon, and leymond and the gang for dinner...ban was mentioning late night

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-23692662118992154922009-06-30T19:23:00.000+08:002009-06-30T19:27:58.394+08:00

Last year this time you put me through this.Then you told me we'll work through it together.This year this time you gave up again.

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-79729369769876844802009-06-30T18:41:00.013+08:002009-07-02T03:34:22.579+08:00

不知不觉这些日子里退了又退，一直往后退一再的被放弃，我还是那么执著你要的自由，我真的给不了吗？离开。。。是唯一选择吗？是时候清醒了吧往后退多了，都差点忘了前面还有出路。还是那句。。。你开心就好。

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-11093131524018762112009-06-27T21:33:00.002+08:002009-06-27T21:39:29.438+08:00

我们活在两个时差的世界，最终还是败给了时间，我爱你，但以与你无关。不是我不在乎，不是我不关心。只是告别，离别时 对你来说，没差别I'll still be here if you need meDo you ever think this sentence was appopriate when ironically it never was...

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-81813651328914750502009-06-27T21:11:00.005+08:002009-06-27T21:32:11.179+08:00

Been thinking about going for further education this few days.Of course if given the opportunity to do so, and I can afford it, why not?But there's so much to put down in order to go...My mom, my doggies, my friends and my job.Even though i would say studying is in my own interest, purely for my own potential career advancement, part of it came down to herMaybe i'm trying to escape reality, i've

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-74973724653657911992009-06-20T00:31:00.003+08:002009-06-20T00:41:56.615+08:00

HOROSCOPEYou will be presented with many opportunities to allow you to develop and grow this year. There will be severe people issues and you should be prepared that there will be a high tendency that you might lose your friends along the way. People might get jealous and start to pick on you alleging that you are arrogant and proud. The temptation to bury yourself in your work at hand and to

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-90277348617122830362009-06-18T00:00:00.002+08:002009-06-18T00:29:52.239+08:00

Went JB yesterday for acu-pressure massage for 2 hours with cheong,ju and eugene.Its was a fun trip with cheong..Me and cheong were in the same room during massage and he was laughing all the time from the ticklish feeling, damn it was so painful for me, but after it was over, i felt so relax...We had Cantonese Roast as late lunch before a short shopping trip and eventually went for nasi lemak.

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-16999715284268602062009-06-13T02:53:00.002+08:002009-06-13T03:16:30.643+08:00

raNdoM fEEliNgsmooth road never make good drivers,calm sea never makes good sailors,clear skies never make good pilots,

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-9514766332175596002009-06-13T01:56:00.002+08:002009-06-13T02:39:46.082+08:00

How often we wish for another chance to start afresh,to make admends for our mistake...It doesn't take much time, just that one moment when your thought come through,it doesn't take much effort, just that one bit of desire to try with your heart...Love is not finding the right person, right character,its about building the right relationship.its not a matter of how much we start out with,its how

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-40178829662991070932009-06-10T02:19:00.002+08:002009-06-10T02:35:00.864+08:00

It really take a lot of effort from 2 person to keep it going.When you start coming up with excuses with every little thing that prevent you from making it work...when you start to lose that effort to keep it going.Then what can you do when its not heading towards the direction you both perceive to be heading?Its really embarrassing to say but fact that time and again, i put down my dignity only

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-18936638819102566612009-06-08T21:48:00.002+08:002009-06-08T22:08:46.098+08:00

无形的压力压得我好累。是自己给于的要求太苛刻，还是别人眼里的我就是这样？想找个人分担忧愁才发现原来我都是一个人。Work seems like the only things that left in my life.Even wanting to meet for movie and dinner seems so insisting and unwilling.I guess KTV, chit-chatting, tea-drinking session with friends seems to pose a happier option.I can see you making calls and arranging for all those sessions, from morning 7am till evening 8pm i don't even get a msg

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-9510457106949318552009-06-01T10:03:00.003+08:002009-06-01T10:05:55.024+08:00

Yes thats it..May is over!A week of midnight shift is over..finally can get a good rest and resume life back to normalcy!

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-90372653040591121972009-05-24T02:34:00.002+08:002009-05-24T02:54:51.762+08:00

忍忍忍！How much longer can i tolerate?Damn I guess I'll have to just throw something down at him one of these days!God damn it...why is it that such people exist in this world?People who assume they know everything and they are the best in everything when they are not..To walk away is fool or cool? To maintain silence is sane or insane?To rebuke is for righteous? Or am i just plain rude?如果我可以不再冷静。。。

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-68968068396467148942009-04-29T03:55:00.002+08:002009-04-29T04:08:45.423+08:00

Too much spare time on hand lately...wonderful...Can't really remember when was the last time i get to have such freedom consecutively every week.Been sleeping a lot the past few days...Man i love this life.No more having to rush, no more multi tasking, no more scolding, no more cursing and swearing at everything that goes wrong.I guess it's just me who got a whole new way of understanding my

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-44319857624808683642009-04-27T00:55:00.003+08:002009-04-27T01:09:10.032+08:00

I was just emotionally unbalanced...thinking too much I guess...Thats what happen when you are trap in four walls with no one to talk to!I have a great relationship going on, great job, a good pay, good friends all around, my beloved dogs that always greet me when I return home from work...What else can i ask for? Maybe relationship with my family could have been better?Imperfection makes life

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-31717326054208928152009-04-23T01:13:00.002+08:002009-04-23T01:42:01.173+08:00

Satisfaction in life?What is it?FamilyFriendsLoveWorkHobbiesOur minds are so complicated...I can't feel any satisfaction.I don't understand why I try so hard...Its getting numb.

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-91375027141319485042009-04-21T02:57:00.003+08:002009-04-21T03:42:10.393+08:00

I actually spend sometime looking at my blog and I realise something...Its mostly if not all about work work work..Today I was quite unhappy the moment I arrive at work, during line-up..Chef Eugene and Kelvin saw the expression on my face. They knew I wasn't myself.男人不是为钱就是为情。Haha...I reflect upon myself, and I'm truly ashamed to say I really have been missing out on life most important purpose!

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-57883528314666077812009-04-17T01:25:00.002+08:002009-04-17T02:13:59.915+08:00

Its been one month and 2 days since i started work at Capella.Tiring..I can't find any words to describe how i feel.Its a big family. Its a good team we have there, i like them.Been putting in long hours...Work start from 8am in the morning till almost 12am midnight...Been working those hours a couple of days a week and i already feel so tired.I can't imagine how both my chefs came in earlier

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-30726021851989405482009-03-21T00:58:00.004+08:002009-03-21T01:28:30.440+08:00

Today's the 4th day on my new job...All I can say is 'WOW'I mean you really have to be in it to know it!Way better way superior to many many companies out there...Did so much things these few days...Prepared all breakfast and lunch items for the past few days with lessons and orientation in between...13-14hours at work everyday...Damn! It is tiring at the end of the day but you go home with the

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-76317860352547189052009-03-16T04:45:00.002+08:002009-03-16T05:02:01.695+08:00

Its been a long time since I watch horror..God damn it..was trick into watching one today...Damn it scare the shit out of me..now I'm afraid of taking lift alone.This couple of days have been relax but as always...I always have this problem of being paranoid whenever I don't have to wake up for work...I just can't seem to sleep well...Keep waking up early in the morning!Looking forward to my new

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-66408305958401276142009-03-13T15:51:00.002+08:002009-03-13T16:02:42.885+08:00

The week that was...interesting!Went to did a demostration cooking at NTUC Thomson.Had a tanning session at Fabulous Tan Cine.Catching up with ex-colleagues.Had a farewell.Today is my last day at mount fab...and i gotta work midnight shift..How boring can it gets...Lonely in the kitchen till 1am...There it goes again...I'm starting work next Tue at my new workplace.I know i'm not the only one

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-42521423269980913542009-02-28T02:18:00.003+08:002009-02-28T02:25:15.788+08:00

Okay..things have been finalised!I've made up my mind to resign...Many contributing factors...bad things aside...Main reason is for career advancement lah...Hmm...Andy will also be moving on with me..We'll be going Sentosa...Just a tad bit further from Mt. Faber.Sometimes in life we lose our way, most important is to get back on track.Hope I'm back on track this time around..

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-71394768085164510672009-02-27T00:04:00.002+08:002009-02-27T00:07:13.512+08:00

Lol i know my blog's rotting away..I never update because life's so boring that i can't find any issues interesting to blog...Always work work work...Always grumbling grumbling on blog also pointless...Anyway hopefully tomorrow i'll have something to blog about.Till then... =x

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-381967493953947452008-11-14T00:36:00.002+08:002008-11-14T00:45:28.110+08:00

This pic was from a competition i took part in recently..Really...yet again..I guess I've realised enough about competitions of this scale..Nothing but conspiracies...Haha..The moment i saw Mr John coming in, i knew its over..I was spot on for the top three placing and i wasn't surprised at all..Been going thru some bad times...I guess its just me..Always making decisions that goes wrong...Not

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-44607793167889025962008-11-01T03:39:00.003+08:002008-11-01T04:01:07.945+08:00

Its really a very tiring chore forcing myself to go to work..I don't know how long..or how deep is my tolerance...Getting zero satisfaction everyday...Its such a fucked up feeling getting back to zero again!Been taking out my fustration on the killings..Yeah like a sadist!4th time in 2 years...why must i keep dropping back to the bottom again?Argh! i hate this!Everyday seems to pass by so slowly.

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-65153290341681930822008-10-23T23:58:00.002+08:002008-10-24T00:10:50.620+08:00

Started work...feel so unhappy...The dishes served are really very disappointing..Hope thngs will improve..Some people are really stubborn..I was told not to bother..But how can i not bother or not be bothered by it when they actually allowed spoilt or unfresh food to be serve?I put down so many offers to pick up this one and i just want to help it to gain a reputable place in today's culinary

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-67054112881705814322008-09-25T21:52:00.005+08:002008-10-03T16:40:51.347+08:00

Finally end of course..came in without much hoo-hah and now leave like its just another day...I guess its just because of all the interesting characters that we have...Today was mystery box exam...end of course and yet some of the things that i've seen today was what i've been doing at 10 years old. Scrambled eggs, deep fried vegetables, burnt garlic, uncooked meats...I don't understand how the

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-13170517145910162012008-09-25T21:52:00.003+08:002008-09-30T17:14:20.599+08:00

Finally..end of course exam is coming in 3 days time...Trying hard to memorise everything i can now..Sian...Why memorise?Why not let us have the freedom to create something...?Today i went to Indian Kitchen to start the last kitchen rotation policy...Hai..don't know what to say... -_-|| Lets just say the lamb curry is the only thing i like..LOL~!

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-48201397676854726292008-09-25T21:52:00.002+08:002008-09-25T21:55:59.269+08:00

Sian..like i said yesterday..Today is the first offer on paper...Wait so long no progression...One shot came 3 offer in the span of 3 hours..But i already sign the one i been setting my sight on for some time...The other two opportunities that i let go hopefully will not come back to haunt me..Hai...both 5 stars hotels...One at raffles one near wheelock...Hmm...

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-22694308823193011652008-09-24T18:09:00.003+08:002008-09-24T18:24:43.585+08:00

Been doing lots of things lately...up to last week was trying to get all my assignment done. Which of course i did and right now final term exams is in 2 days time and trying to get everything cramp up my puny brain at the moment...Next week also is my end of course exam which i'm more interested in..haha..Mystery box ingredients...whoo lah lah..Went for photo shoot today for my recipe to be

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-74138313850752828062008-08-31T23:36:00.003+08:002008-08-31T23:57:55.540+08:00

Its been some time..ya again!The episode finally ended and a damn letter was what I'll got...Shit place shit job...packed hundred litres of sauces and soups into vacuum sealed bags again..how was i supposed to be learning my crafts? In sealing bags and squabbling with the others whether i can 'take' a couple of trays from them when its doesn't even belong to them in the first place...'Hogging'

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-64168197859345107492008-08-18T21:04:00.003+08:002008-08-18T21:11:02.886+08:00

A small action..a dumb decision and its getting into a pretty big issue now.I guess the whole of the catering division is starting to talk about it already...What the ... Hopefully things doesn't get out of control!38 more days to go...Please just let me get over it...

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-32039743415983357752008-08-16T21:17:00.003+08:002008-08-16T21:22:30.544+08:00

Recently slept a lot everyday..after school, after work..straight away went home and hit the sack after shower...wake up first thing is find food...then get online for a couple of hours and back to sleep again...The medicine i have been taking lately really power! Made me so drowsy, all i feel like doing was to sleep...but even after so much rest, i still having painful sore throat and cough all

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-70719985220159714402008-08-13T12:50:00.003+08:002008-08-13T12:54:42.449+08:00

Car Servicing = $220Printer Ink Catridges = $80Visit to the Doc = $30Petrol top-up = $70Total damages for today!My god..wanted to eat something nice for lunch...but had 2nd thoughts after the damages this morning...half of my monthly puny allowance gone in 100mins!

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-77427903027182556152008-08-11T22:24:00.002+08:002008-08-11T22:42:58.686+08:00

Went with wen to Singapore Flyer building to catch a glimpse of fireworks!Nice lone shadow in the background, woke up on Sunday morning at 6am, made our way down to east coast to watch sunrise..too bad its a cloudy morning..nevertheless, its the companion that makes the scenery beautiful and not the other way round isn't it?One look and you'll know how sick i was...pale lips and lacklustre eyes...

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-8375136987754770812008-08-11T21:18:00.002+08:002008-08-11T21:48:10.608+08:00

Haven't really been busy..spending a lot of time at home lately...Flu virus stuck with me for 4 days le...If i can forgo playing soccer then i'm really sick!Lol..put jiunwei, andy and co on aeroplane cause i was too sick to play soccer on fri night..Went to school after work today...Had a little spare time before homecoming start...So i calculate again and there's 12 more days of lesson left,2

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-91190477929303148142008-08-09T12:21:00.002+08:002008-08-09T12:27:55.135+08:00

Yup been some time again..today is National day and tomorrow is my off day..!So happy to get a 'short' break! A really short one..Anyway better than nothing at all...For some amazing reasons..popping down a couple of durain causes a couple of acne to pop out on my face as well..sian..!Think i haven't been getting enough rest of late...feel really lethargic no matter what i do..and best of all i

h@onoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5753850.post-44082579851426893702008-07-25T22:26:00.004+08:002008-08-11T22:43:44.611+08:00

Been over a week since i posted anything..busy week!Put in a lot of effort in preparation for 23rd competition.Extremely disappointed that i ended up empty handed.But that's life..?! What else can i say but bad luck?No more lame excuses, fact is maybe i just ain't good enough...Nevertheless its a good lesson learnt and i believe in what i do.It gives me the confidence that i can stand up there

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Slept at 4.30am last night and woke up by 7am this morning..Not that i'm not tired but i just can't get to sleep..To say i don't mind is totally cheating myself..I don't want to self-decieved...But i think the future is more important than the past...And as long as i can see what i want to see..I believe that will give me the confidence to go on...Haven't really sleep well and competition is

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